When you feel that your spirit is not strong enough to take the burden, what should you do, the easy way out is to give way and surrender. Cut it off and don't think it any more. And it is bloody.
But what's God's idea and plan and why the things happen to you right now. God gave us chance to learn and grow to another level. If we give up, we have failed the test.
But what's more, fail just a event, we are already a success. Try and try again, I gonna ask the Lord give me the favour and strength that Jesus has and I surely will meet the Kairos moment!